glorycloud's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the schizo-paranoiac recording process It is in the death flow 10:16 AM Sunday/the Christian day of rest. My wife just left for a house of worship. I am trying to come to terms with this day. Right now I feel like going down in the lower level and laying down in the dark. I am extremely uncomfortable about my wife leaving Tuesday morning for Phoenix Arizona. She is leaving to be with our daughter who is going to have their second child this week. I might feel better when I know Carol is gone and I will have to deal with it. Right now I am in a waiting pattern and want it over so I can adjust to being alone for 17 days. This morning we got up around 7 o'clock AM. Once again I slept poorly due to weird dreams and never getting comfortable. music I made oatmeal for breakfast and a pot of fresh coffee. After breakfast I basically wandered the house. I did take a hot shower in hopes I would feel reborn/washed anew by the Holy Spirit the sanctifying activity of the Spirit. I fed the birds and did a load of wash. Sometimes clean body and clean clothes makes me feel better inside. Now if all of reality was clean as the holiness of God then maybe I would feel like a glorified man/resurrected from the dead. Last night I did nothing but sit in the dark till we went to bed around 9:30 PM. I have next to me this morning to read when able, "Anti-Oedipus Capitalism and Schizophrenia" by Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari. Well I do not know what else to write in my wasted state so I will close. I might go get myself a hair cut this morning. I will cut my hair and trimmed my beard so as to enter into a state of mourning. "[39] All flesh is not the same flesh: but there is one kind of flesh of men, another flesh of beasts, another of fishes, and another of birds. 10:32 a.m. - 2015-08-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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