glorycloud's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- for by grace are ye saved through faith It is the flow Eastern Time Zone 7:57 PM Tuesday night. I am once again alone this evening with my Self. My wife works the next two nights. I am not in the mood these days to watch television. I rather sit in silence than hear the silly nonsense babbler on TV. I should not be writing since my left arm these days is in extreme pain. Also my hands hurt. I should get off the internet totally and do nothing. It is hard typing with one hand/my right hand. I had a super quiet day. I mainly sat in silence or read my books. I did not go anywhere. I did walk around our home to see what is growing. We are started seeing green plant growth on our trees and flora. I got in the mail this afternoon a used book I had ordered titled, "Gone: The Last Days Of The New Yorker" memoir by Renata Adler. I have been reading a book by Renata Adler titled, "After The Tall Timber: Collected Nonfiction." Today I have been mainly reading, "Readings" essays by Sven Birkerts. I am listening to music this evening as I write these words. Playlist I am suppose to get in the mail this month new Mac McCaughan CD 'Non-Believers' and the new Built to Spill CD. Next month my oldest son Caleb Jon and I are going to see in concert Built to Spill downtown Grand Rapids May 31, 2015. Mac McCaughan fronts the band Superchunk and also owns Merge Records. There is nothing pressing on my mind. It has been a quiet day. Carol slept most of the afternoon. She is getting over a bad cold. Tomorrow we will be in the middle of the month. Also in May our daughter Bethany will be visiting us with her husband Andy and little Louisa Mae who is now 1 years old. Last night we skyped Beth and Lou. Lou is now walking and talking a little. Beth is pregnant and is doing fine/she is due the first week of September 2015. I thought about writing about nostalgia. I find myself these days thinking about our Past/my Past because next month Carol and I celebrate our 36th wedding anniversary. I find my mind going back to the Time when I was single and living in Richmond California. I met Carol when I was a student at Reformed Bible College, Grand Rapids Michigan. To be honest when I remember my Past it is not worth remembering. I do though remember with fondness the women that loved me and took care of me/when I lived in California. I am thankful for all the Christian people I knew in my Past. But I am not one to look back to my youth with any desire to relive it. My years with Carol and my family have been the best years of my life. I am one to live in the Eternal Now. I am always seeking to live in Christ Jesus now and not in the past. I did not have a childhood that is worth remembering. My childhood was a mess. I did not have a childhood worth reliving or thinking about. One thing that strikes me in looking at my Past when I was a young man was how naive I was. I had no understanding of real American life. I lived in a dream world for many years. I do not think I became aware of American reality till I was 40 years old. When I was a young man I lived in a world of dreams/nonreality. People must have considered me weird or at least a little crazy/a mad romantic dreamers. When I was young I was a loner like I am now. But I always had women/lovers in my life. I had girlfriends but no male friends. When I was single and young I stayed to myself but was only sociable with my women friends. I lived off in my head/books/writing in my diary/drugs/dreams. I suppose right now I am living off in my head/reading books/writing in my diary/drifting towards Heaven/the Final Resurrection. "But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you" Romans 8:11. When I look over my life thus far I remember the old gospel hymn "Amazing Grace!" by John Newton Amazing grace! How sweet the sound ’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear, Through many dangers, toils and snares, The Lord has promised good to me, Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail, The earth shall soon dissolve like snow, When we’ve been there ten thousand years, http://www.hymntime.com/tch/htm/a/m/a/amazing_grace.htm "He answered and said, Whether he be a sinner or no, I know not: one thing I know, that, whereas I was blind, now I see." John 9:25 So the night goes by. I will close to listen to music and praise the Lord for His amazing grace. "[1] And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins; 8:46 p.m. - 2015-04-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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