glorycloud's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I do not believe in Fun I do not believe in fun Well I ate a plate of leftovers and a bowl of ice cream-Carol left to take the dog for a walk-Bethany left to attend a High School sports event-I am not sure what I will do next? I feel cold and tired-I will go to bed early I suppose. I have not read anything today. I am too tired to read my books. I feel like writing in my diary, but I really have nothing New to report. My existence remains the same from one day to the next. I am a poor working man seeking to the face of God in the dead american world. Today at work Phin Lo asked me "Did you have fun over the weekend?" I told Phin Lo "I do not believe in fun". What is FUN? All I know is tomorrow I got to go back to work. I asked Phin Lo if he was having fun working at the Hamilton Farm Bureau-Egg Division?" He answered that he had to work because he had to pay bills-he had no choice-he had to work at the egg pit if he wanted to pay his bills-he said money went through his fingers like water. So life is not fun is it? I did enjoy being with my wife and kids this weekend. I love being with my wife-I like having her next to me-but I do not believe in fun. I think americans are obsessed about having fun. Life is not a party. Life is hard work. We are here on earth to prepare ourselves for the eternal state. "For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal" 2 Corinthians 4:17,18 At lunch break I showed Phin Lo those books I bought Friday "Pocket History of the Church" "Pocket Dictionary of Theological Terms" and "Pocket Dictionary of Biblical Studies"-I suggested we go through these books but he did not take up my offer-I thought he would want to study Church History using for our text "Pocket Dictionary of the Church" but there was no interest so I dropped it-I offered to teach Phin Lo the Old Testament but he says he is too busy-I do not think Phin Lo has any spiritual hungry-any spiritual desire to grow spiritually-he does not go to church. Today Phin Lo invited me to go to his church-I said why go to your church when you do not go? Also it seems from talking to you that your church is not teaching you anything-you do not have any theological knowledge or knowledge of Church History-what does your church teach? I asked Phin Lo-he could not answer me-I said I know what Messiah Independent Reformed Church teaches-preaches-which is small town Dutch Calvinism-small town Dutch Reformed piety. I do not understand Phin Lo's spirituality? At lunch time when I showed him the books he showed no curiosity-did he not want to know Church History? Theology? the Bible? I have always wanted to know these things since the Lord saved me 33 years ago. And because of this thirst for spiritual knowledge I am now living out my days at the bottom of the egg pit-life is a mystery. Phin Lo is a mystery. Everything is a mystery. I will close to rest. 6:49 p.m. - 2002-10-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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